Preschool

This post has been in my heart for so long, and I still feel so inadequate to write about it. My palms sweat, and I begin to question everything that we've talked about for so long. But, we know it's the right decision for us, for our family and for Levi. After a lot of talking, a lot of prayer, we've decided to homeschool Levi this next year.


Homeschool.


Breathe with me, I said it out loud. Maybe I'm just the one who needs to breathe.. it's terrifying to me.  I don't have it all together and I don't know what it will look like, but I do know that we need to do it this year. We loved our preschool experience last year, but, we need to try it on. Someone said to me once, it's like you're standing at a wide river, and there is no way across but to jump, so this year, we're going to jump. We're going to try it. We might sink, we might float, we might tread water, or maybe, we'll learn how to swim. I have no way of knowing, and that is completely unnerving to me.


But, we are going to try it for a number of reasons

1) Levi wants to read. Preschool isn't going to teach him that. I'm not faulting preschool for that, it's just not where most kids are.  I know that I can teach him to read so why not.

2)  We still desire to be in ministry full-time.  If\when we end up in ministry, we feel like homeschooling would be something that would fit our family's lifestyle better.

3) I really do love spending time with my kids, and I'm not ready to send them off to school on a regular basis yet. I want to keep them home, to love on them, to show them how to love others, to love Jesus, and to learn together as a family, so we can be life-long learners together.. (thanks SAU)

4) Maybe it's so that I feel more in control of the situation, but we are going to homeschool him this year, and we will evaluate it at the end of it to see what we liked\didn't like.  If we sink, we might decide traditional school is a better option, if we swim, maybe we'll stick with homeschooling. I don't know, and let me say, I wish I did know, and I wish I already had the answers. I say to Mike all the time, I wish education were an easy decision, but at least in this house, it doesn't seem to be. We do know that the Lord is faithful, and that He has called us to do this as a family this year. We are trusting in Him and His plans for our family, and my planner-self needs to let go and be okay with not knowing the next step.


So there ya have it.
We are officially "that family".